God's Faithfulness!!

Wow -- seems like life has been super crazy busy lately --- yeah, I know, so what's my excuse :-)

In all honesty, that only sounds like the proper thing to say -- the truth is that I've been down in the dumps and haven't wanted to engage with anyone or anything.  Getting the girls off to school was a major accomplishment, one I celebrated by going to the couch and sleeping the morning away.  And then by the time lunch was over it was time for them to be home and just getting through supper and bedtime was exhausting, much less taking the time to do anything else.  I hate that I suffer from whatever, I think it's more than just depression, but that hits me really hard sometimes too.

Anyway -- so the last weeks have been a struggle -- hopefully now that winter is here it will get better!!  Yes, I said better!!  I know I'm one of those crazy people that like the dull gray dreariness of winter -- and hey, if we get a few white flakes all the better :-)

Part of the reason I've been struggling is because I like to be in control and feel like everything is like I want it to be, even if it's all bleak and dreary, at least I'm the one making that decision. Lately, it's been uncertainty.  K & I decided that I would quit my job at the end of the contract year and for a while that seemed okay, I was doing some odd jobs here and there, well that all ended and then all the big $$$ starting piling up.  Trips for weddings, cars needing maintenance, field trips needing cash, girls needing clothes (yes, in my world, we'd all be nude!!) it just kept adding up and adding up with no end in sight. 

I was hired as an instructor at a local craft store, but none of the classes panned out -- they all kept getting cancelled, I wasn't selling any watches that I had made, nothing seemed to be going right.  And then on top of it all, because I was exhausted we kept adding out to eat meals.  Just craziness!!

And during all of this K and I were discussing getting another vehicle.  We've been talking about it for 6-9 months or so, realizing our van is getting up there in age and will start needing repairs.  We also know that it will be easier to make car payments now while the girls are in grade school and not in a couple of years when academy tuition comes due for R.  K did the research and the hunt began. 

So back to the original title -- we now have a new car, I've been able to put my watches in a local boutique and I've actually taught a class.   More on the above later -- it's now time for supper, believe it or not, I've actually cooked the past 3 nights in a row!!